pain and heartache

The gut wrenching feeling began to overcome me, my legs felt weak and I didn’t know how to stop the tears from welling up in my eyes.  Everything I had known, the life I had had disappeared in a second.  I didn’t even have a chance to catch my breath.
I wanted, I needed to get away.  Away from him, away from this moment.
I wanted to cling to him, and not let him go, although in same thought I couldn’t bare the sight of him.
In.  Out.  Breathe: in and out.
Aching pain caused me collapse to the ground.  I shivered as a sorry hand stroked my head.  But then, he was gone.  What hope I had left was gone.  The close of the door was the release of emotion.  Tears rolled and I cried and screamed.  It kept on coming.   For what felt like forever.  I sat there and let it all come out.  Hoping letting the pain out would rid it from my heart.
In.  Out.
My head was throbbing, my eyes sore.  Save me.  Come back for me.  How could he leave me here?  Alone.  Questions filled my head as grief tortured my heart.
Curling up on the floor was the only thing I seemed able to do.  Sleep, was the only apparent escape.
Breathe: In and out.